...and u would think i would have caught on a while ago

I have had the rooms set up for the kids, ready for anytime they come to stay with us....its kind of hard sometimes to set up their rooms. There is a sense of vacancy in the rooms which is almost palpable. I keep trying to rearrange the rooms, to decorate just enough for them to still fill it with their personalities. But nothing has seemed to work. I dont spend much times in the rooms because it frustrates me to not be able to fix the odd feeling....the strange smell....the vacancy.
Well, since my daughter has moved in, and everyone is settling into their school routines and are pretty much in their places...summer is over and hopefully the chaos....then the room has changed. I noticed it today as i went in there to put away some laundry...the room held a faint sweet fragrance....it felt warmer than it ever has(not temp warm), and the vacancy was gone...Who knew that all the room needed was a person in it. It feels owned now. All of the same things are in it except the person is in it much more often....I mentioned it to my husband and he said he had been standing in the doorway of the room earlier that day thinking the same thing...the change is real.

Im so Tired

I am very new to all of this online blogging thing. I dont know a thing about html or anything of the sort and i so wanted this to be set up pretty. My brother usually handles all these sort of things for me because hes a web designer. Maybe i can get him to pretty it all up later...
I dont even know where to start, but i guess i am just tired. I am getting used to having my daughter here, my huge highschooler, my huge hijabi highschooler in a school which has never seen a hijab up close and personal. This groundbreaking in a very small town area is a very brave thing of her to do and is the price she was willing to pay to come and live with her mother. She spent the last 7 yrs with her father and Allah blessed her with enough stubbornness, determination, and clearheadedness to demand that she be able to spend some part of her childhood living with her own mother. I love her. She will do big things i think. She gave up Early college and her friends to move out to the country with her mom, stepdad, 4 cats, and a goat....
I am having mixed feelings about the other 2 still living with their father, but Allah cares more for them than i ever could and they will be ok. I dont know if the stress of trying to figure out what to do with their situation is draining me or do i really have something physiological going on.....i promise myself tomorrow to Insh make an appt for a complete physical....cholesterols and all. I have never actually had that done so it should be interesting. I find myself wanting to sleep all the time....i get tired, like really sleepy tired a lot recently and its starting to bother me.
I am taking a semester break from school and i have so many things i want to get done in this time, things i couldnt get done this past yr b/c of school, but now i am too tired to get them done. I wonder if i was tired before but pushed thru it because i HAD to complete the school assignments. Maybe this tiredness is really in my head and is something i just need to push past...maybe its my struggle....Insh i will find out soon.